day eight April 7, 2008

today was what i would call day of melt downs. it’s started off, poo-rrific. we got poop nice and early this morning. he usually wakes up at 7:30 goes back to sleep and wakes up around 9-10. so maybe i disrupted his nap cycle by getting him on the pooper so early. so first time on the toilet today, success. it’s true that you have to do this when you have the most time and can be really relaxed. i don’t seem to get poop, if i am slightly feeling rushed. he must sense that and it creates performance anxiety. so he missed his first nap of the day. his next nap was only for 45 minutes, subtle signs of meltdown to come apparent. he was still playing catch up by the time we reached mid-day. i tried putting him on the toilet before an afternoon bday party but i didn’t get anything because i am sure my vibe was not chill’axin enough. fast forward to party. he gets a short nap there, no more than 20 minutes. melt down building up from here. i tried to put him on the toilet and we have sobbing and wailing going on, all of which i am totally unfamiliar with. i am freaking out because intuitively? i feel like he wants to poop, but maybe it’s that i am not comfortable enough to relax in a toilet without our gear. we end up having a complete melt down, i put him on a trainer toilet at the party, he pees and is otherwise miserable. fast forward to home, daddy tries to put him on, nothing but serious, unfamiliar crying. we’re not sure what he wants and we’re not quite used to all this fussiness. i try again a little later get some poofs but overall did not get any poops.

1. he has been surpressing his poop all day because timing and pooppurtinities weren’t there, he wants to go, but not in his diaper
2. he’s was tired, lacking in naps
3. he’s teething
4. he knows what he wants now and is more vocal . . we’ve created a communicator but we still don’t understand him which leads to inevitable frustration
5. all of the above

whatever, everything is okay . . we’re still 8 for 8.   i got the only poop he pooped out today.  tomorrow i’ll have to be on it first thing!